Wow Eshal. Happy sixteenth birthday. Wow, where should I start from, you’re 16 years old now, it’s crazy. Just a bit of time ago, I was 15 and you were 14, still in Lahore. Time flew past soooo fast eshu. I’m so proud of you yaar. You turning 16 in a couple of days still baffles me. How we were just a couple of kids a year ago and now both of us have serious studies going on, new friends, we’re in new places. It’s honestly bizarre how quick things change. Things changed between you and me aswell, maybe because of the distance, or maybe because of our age. It has honestly been a blessing eshu, seeing you grow every single day, and getting to talk to you so much this past year. I could say, I saw you grow on a screen LOL. But yeah, I’m glad that we spent so much time together, even if it was online, I never took it for granted, every moment with you was very umm something that I could not have with anyone else. It was special, in every way. Khair, you’re turning 16 so I’ll have to figure out a way to write you 16 pages about meaningful things. I honestly don’t know kiya kaise boloon, I bet the things I’ll say will get repetitive because I’d have mentioned them in one of my previous letters that I wrote for you. But here goes nothing. Eshu Jamsy. The girl that has shown me the best that this world could offer. I mean, how are you, you? I’m confounded on how much we know about each other, how many memories we have together, and how many moments we have that only we know about. It’s something so special and it’s very important to me. If I had to describe you eshal, it’d be like describing the most beautiful thing on the planet. You’re mesmerising, in every single way. I couldn’t have imagined that one of the biggest parts of my life would be you, before moving to lahore, I wasn’t looking for anything, I honestly hated that we were coming because I liked my city. I was working on projects with friends and I liked the comfort of my city. But, when I moved back to Karachi after staying in Lahore, I started to like your city more, and it was all because you were there. Yahi toh hota hai eshu, insaan kahin pe bhi nahi khush hota. Lekin, for that one month, I felt a rollercoaster of emotions and feelings. Honestly speaking, I don’t think I had felt that many emotions in these past sixteen years of my life as I did in that one month and a half. It was so unimaginable and so unexpected that I’d be lucky enough to feel so many things. Nowadays when I think about that time and I wonder how everything happened, I’d just laugh and reminisce what we’d say to each other and how everything played out. It was beautiful. I still remember when you said to me on the night when we went out for August 14, “Just worry about things I worry about”, and eshu, since that day, I’ve only worried about the things that you worry about, for real. Whenever something would bother you, it’d bother me. It was like I was connected with you in a such a way that I was so vulnerable, but I felt so safe that I could care less about being vulnerable. I guess that’s what love is, trusting someone blindly. Kasmay eshal, meri itni achi flow ja rhi thi career ki, and then I fell in love with you, it was honestly so unexpected and everything that I had planned got delayed soooo muchhh. Only thing I’d focus on is our drives and FUZETEA. That’s it. I never explained what other things were happening in my life before I fell in love and what i had planned on doing while in Lahore. Eshal, I wanted to DROWN in my work, I wanted to work work work work work, nothing else, my flow with HFM, my advertising agency was going well, and I had met a friend, Subhan, like three days before I came to Lahore, to work with him on dropshipping. I was working on making a gaming team aswell, which would present a good representation for our country, and you say that I don’t like Pakistan. Other than that, I hadn’t planned anything else honestly LOL. But, my flow got disrupted and I guess that was a blessing in my opinion. I got to know you so well eshal jamsy, aur kiya maang sakta hoon mein from this world? I had ALL my time to spend on you and I believe that I didn’t waste a second spending it on you. Nor do I think that I wasted my money or my efforts on you, nothing was a waste if it made you feel good and confident about yourself eshu. I wanted to love you, and I did, and I feel like I did well for my first time. I did make ALOT of mistakes which you helped me with, thank you for that honestly, thank you for being so patient and for accepting my love the way you did eshu. I felt like I was on top of the world for sometime. Khair leave all that, I wanna tell you eshal that we’ve stopped talking abhi na, and it does bother me a lot. I’m not blaming you at all, it was something which was right for both of us, but eshal, I miss you my gujju. Mein tumhari jaan itni asaani se nahi choroon ga, you want me to go, fine I’ll go, but I’ll always come back, always to you. I’ve promised you so many things na? I want to be a man of my word for you, and I want you to see me as a good man. You know? When I think of you, I think of you as like a baby, Jaise you’re some baby who should be cuddled and loved and adored, it’s honestly how I think about you sometimes. YOURE JUST SO FUCKING CUTE. Kiya kr skta mein eshu, I imagine you and say to myself, “baby ho tum meri paaru si, how can I ever let you go? I wanna take care of you my whole life”, and that’s how it is eshal, I wanna be there for you my whole life, you’re like a fairy for me. A princess who’s so beautiful and pure that I cannot let go of, kuch bhi kho loon eshu, bas Tumhe nahi meri jaan. You make me feel good about myself, you make me feel like I’m a good person, you make me feel like a man eshal. The way you do things with me, you make me feel like a man, you’d make me feel so masculine and confident.