Eshu aaj kal it does hurt me and bother me ke we do not talk and its okay because you need your time. You’re going through alot. Being away from your brother, and a lot of workload from your studies and your job. I understand how overwhelming it could be and how overstimulated you’d be by the end of the day. I just want to be the person who you wind down to, the person who gives you that relaxation and peace baby. I honestly have so much to offer to you eshu, just give me a chance and I’ll maybe even lose myself in the process but I’ll always be there to listen and to make you as happy as possible. I have sacrificed a lot for you and I haven’t looked back once, it’s because I believe that it was all worth it gujju, everything that I sacrificed led me closer to you and proved to you how devoted I was to loving you and taking care of you just the way you deserve it. I understand that we’re a bit different when it comes to certain things such as when I come back home after a long day at college, all I wanna do is open my phone and text you and listen to your voice and talk to you. You’re who makes me wind down, you’re what brings me peace my baby. And you’re quite different when it comes to this kind of thing. You want all the time you can get alone and you just want to be left alone and like you don’t wanna talk to anyone😭, and that’s fine honestly eshu. But, har Banda aise paida nahi hota. I’m not saying that you’re traumatised or something or that something is wrong with you, but I’m just saying ke something may have happened in the past that has caused you to be this way. And I wanna figure out what that thing is. What that thing is which always makes you shut me out and makes you isolate yourself my baby. I don’t want that for you honestly. I wanna be the person who you tell what all you’ve been through so that I can accept that part of you aswell the way I accepted all those other parts of you baby. I’m all yours, don’t you understand my love? There’s nobody else who I’ve had my eyes on ever since I fell for you my beautiful girl, that’s why I want to know every side of you and I wanna accept it and accept you, just the way you are. I didn’t fall in love with the idea of you eshal, I fell in love with that rawness, I fell in love with the girl that’d feel safe with me and would be vulnerable with me and talk to me about her dreams and her deepest fears gujju. I fell in love with the girl who cries, the girl who gets so scared when there’s a chupkali in her room, gets mad at me if I fall asleep when we’re talking and who’s honestly sometimes a mess (I don’t mean this in a bad way). That’s the girl I fell in love with baby, not the girl who’s always so ‘perfect’. You’re perfect when you’re with me, when you’re vulnerable and sleepy and when you’re like a baby😭. I want you to be my girl, baby. I want to send you fresh flowers, I wanna take you out to nice dinners, I want to go out on late night drives with you, I want us to work on our dreams and grow together baby, I want us to just be each other’s safe space, a kind of safety that we can only find within each other when everything else in our life isn’t going well. That’s how I feel about you my baby. Us not talking and you being distant hasn’t made me lose feelings, quite the opposite happened honestly my love, agar itna hi asaan hota for me to let you go, I would’ve been gone a long time ago, but that was never the case my love, don’t you see? I’m here to stay, I’m here to stay with you always, whenever everything turns to shit or whenever you feel like life is perfect, I want to be there to experience it with you. I wanna laugh with you and have fun with you and make love with you but at the same time, I also wanna hold you when you cry, reassure you when you’re in doubt, and be the most patient human being on this world when you need me to be that, baby. I wanna be there for you through thick and thin, that’s what true love and friendship is right? My love is honestly unconditional for you baby, I’d go to any lengths to love you and make you happy, and I’d learn more things about you so that I can love you more and wayyy better. You’re all that I ever want eshu, I dream of you almost every night, even in those 4 hours of sleep I get, you manage to squeeze in them aswell😭. You’re the girl I love, which means it’s my responsibility to put your needs before mine and your happiness before mine. Even though, your happiness IS my happiness but yeah😭. I’ve never gotten tired of you nor will I ever get tired of you, I’m here to stay, for as long as I breathe my love. I’ve believed this and I’ve known this since I took a fucking e-scooter to come pick you up from the park😭. You’re my baby, and I’d go to any length to protect you and make you happy baby. You’re all that I’ve ever wanted and you’re all that I could ever wish for babe. Nobody brings me more joy, happiness, bliss, peace, comfort, safety, peace of mind, tranquility, and pleasure more than you do gujju. Even though you hate it when I say it but, I would honestly die for you Eshal Jamsy. You’re the best girl I’ve ever met, and I haven’t met a lot of girls and I’d like to keep it that way but yeah, you’re the best girl ever. The most sweetest and kindest soul that I’ve known. I promise to hold onto you for as long as I can baby, you’re all that I could ever wish for. Just text me aaj kal okay? It honestly makes my day and it kills all the thought that I’ve in this stupid brain of mine😭. I love you more than anything baby, thank you for always making me feel like I was worth something. I love you so much, I hope you get to read this in person. Goodbye❤🩹 Yours truly & always Moosi❤🩹