Hey eshu, I know you’re asleep right now but I just wanted to say thank you for last night. The things you said made me emotional and made me feel way better, I don’t know what to say, I’m so grateful that I’m lost for words and don’t know what to say and it feels like I owe you for so much. You honestly are a really good person eshu, you said such nice things that made me reread them so many times. I don’t know how you figured out that I was down and that I was hiding something from you but it felt really nice that you literally sense how I’m feeling, it makes me feel very understood. The things you said about not giving up on me, seeing a lot of potential in me, and saying that I deserve the world, they made me feel very appreciated and reassured. You make me feel very safe, to the point where I feel comfortable enough to tell you anything, even if it shows my weaknesses, I know that you won’t ever take advantage of it. Thank you for being so calm and understanding with me every time and thank you for never making me feel like I’m not being heard or understood and that I’m not too much to handle. You make me feel okay and so much more better than okay whenever something weird happens in my life. And thank you for looking out for me aswell, you said that this shows weakness and you’re right, it does, so from now on, I’ll try my best to not take things people say to heart. I don’t know how I’ll ever be able to express my gratitude but I honestly feel very thankful eshu, you fixed everything with your kind words in minutes, it felt like I had someone on my side for the first time who genuinely shows concern and care. You honestly made me feel like I don’t have any other worries in life and whenever I talk to you, everything just goes away, as it did this time aswell. I don’t ever wanna lose you, love, and I’m not afraid to say it, you’re the reason why I have so much love and joy within me, thank you for everything eshu, I’ll forever be in your debt due to you always having open arms for me and being there for me whenever I need it. I’ll always be there for you aswell whenever you need it okay? I promise that if we stop talking for any reason (hopefully this never happens), I’ll still be there for you and you can call me, text me, and talk to me anytime you’d like, for as long as you’d like. Thank you again for reassuring me and making me feel valued eshu, I can’t thank you enough really. The amount of love I feel for you is truly incredible after you did all that for me, it proved that you’re a good person with a good heart. You mentioned a couple of months ago that you hurt the people that love you and that you’re not a good person. But eshu, always remember that you’ve been there for me whenever I needed it, like EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Bad people don’t do that. You say that I call you a good person because I’m in love with you, I may be a bit biased, but I honestly really think you are a good person, my love, you do a lot for the people you love , and I mean ALOT. If I talk about the things you’ve done for me personally, I’ll lose count but let’s name a few. You’ve always listened to me, you’ve never made me feel bad about myself, you’ve WRITTEN ME A LETTERRRRR, LIKE WHO DOES THAT AAJ KAL????, you’ve given me so many gifts, you’ve been patient with me, you’ve always cared for me, and out of care, you’ve told me to drive slowly and stop smoking and stop biting my nails, and you’ve honestly done so much that if I begin to name everything, raat hojai gi😭. After you said all that last night eshu, I felt at peace and calm uskay baad. My mind became clear and I felt very safe. I wanted to hug you sooooo badlyyyyyy because of the kind words you useddd, and I promised myself again that I’ll wait for you for as long as it takes, 4 years or 5 years or whatever, I don’t care, you’re honestly such a good girl Eshal. I don’t mind waiting years for you because I know that you’ll take care of me, like you just did, for the rest of my life if we do end up together. When I go to England, I promise that I’ll live up to that potential you see in me and I promise to make you proud one day. I love you so much, eshu, and I know that we’re taking things slow but I can’t help but say it, the love I feel for you is unconditional and unlimited that I have to express it.