Hey eshu. Today I went to central London alone aise hi, then on the tube back, there was this lady sitting opposite to me, she in her late thirties or maybe early forties. I asked her a question, “does money buy you happiness?”. She said if I didn’t have money I’d be sadder😭. I said okay, I told her about my situation and how I had every comfort I could ever imagine in my life but I didn’t feel a sense of peace nor did I feel fulfilled, I told her about you, and how you made me feel and how you fulfilled me. She said to me “I think you’ve answered your own question”. We laughed and then she told me that she has kids when I asked her na, and how it makes you selfless and how you put them before you, and I said that that was beautiful. I want that with you. She told me that I’m young ye woh and it’s good that I’ve figured it out and she said that I should go and get you😭. I said YES YOURE RIGHT ILL DO THAT😭😭. But yeah, I was just feeling weird sa and I wanted to ask someone about this because yeah, it’s weird for me to have every comfort in life which I’m very very very grateful for but it just doesn’t give me a sense of fulfilment or bliss. I’d find that in you all the time. I miss you eshu, and one day, I’ll come home to you again, hopefully in the next few months as I’ve planned. I pray to god every night after fajr for you and for your happiness and for us to meet once again, I cannot keep living like this, seeing you in photos and dreams and thinking of you all the time but not being able to contact you nor meet you, it’s so sad and I hate every second of it. I’m coming back soon eshu, I want my peace of mind back. I love you so much. I hope you’ve been taking care of yourself and I hope that you’re doing very very well. ❤🩹