Hey eshu, it’s my 16th birthday in a couple of hours and I was reflecting back on my 15th and I said that I didn’t really do anything. But of course, I was thinking in a monetary way, I didn’t earn anything this year so that’s why I thought that I didn’t do anything. But, I did a lot other than just making money. I learnt so many skills, I made so many friends, I learned how to drive properly, and I learned so much regarding the importance of everything, which doesn’t even come close to making money. But the best of everything is that, a 15 year old me fell in love for the first time in his life. And that first time was with you, Eshu Jamsy. I love that it is you. I don’t really know how to describe the feeling of falling in love but it’s just so pure and so beautiful, only way I could describe it is by feeling an intense amount of care for someone and trying to do everything you can to make them happy, even if it means spending most of your time or anything that you have into putting a smile on their face. I remember throughout me being 15 and back in KHI after Lahore, I wanted to meet you, so badly, I’d look at tickets everyday, and look around the house for my things that I don’t need, so that I could sell them and get a ticket to Lahore. To meet you for an hour. I even went to the airport once to check for flights flying in the same day just so nobody would find out and I’d meet you for a couple of hours and fly back. But, that couldn’t happen. A couple of days before we were coming to Lahore and then Nathiagali, I took the O’Levels Topical Pastpapers that I had and I went to sell them so that I could get some extra cash to get you something special, unfortunately the guy said he’ll pay me 500 FOR 10 PAST PAPER BOOKS. So, I just checked my bank account and had a bit of money left, which lasted me the whole trip. But yeah, I’m so grateful that I could get you those gifts even though they aren’t the best, they made you feel special so that’s what matters to me. Other than that eshu, falling in love with you was so unexpected, I bet you’d agree too. We just go so close all of a sudden, and I started to see how beautiful of a person you are, inside-out. It was honestly the highlight of my life, I don’t know. But I know that I cannot imagine nor fathom this life without you anymore. People are scared to talk about their weaknesses and their vulnerabilities but eshu, I’ll tell you straight, I honestly need you in my life, my life wouldn’t be as good if you weren’t in it, just getting a text from you makes my day 10X better and if we call, well, I GET OVER THE MOONNNNN. I’m telling you that I need you because I know that you’d never take advantage of me. I trust you, with all my heart. You are honestly a part of my soul now, you’re the reason why I’m actually happy and why I feel fulfilled, you took all my loneliness and sadness away, you are the biggest blessing in my life. You’re the reason why I’ve gotten closer to god and why I’ve started to feel spiritual peace, you’re the reason why my heart doesn’t ache anymore. Now I never really did anything special for my birthday nor did anyone else, except mama, she made a football cake for me which was so so cool when I was like 9 I think. But other than that, I never considered my birthday to be special, it was always just an ordinary day. But eshu you, you don’t think that it’s an ordinary day and you believe that it’s a special day because I was born, and that honestly made me freeze for a minute, it made me feel so happy and shocked in a way that someone feels this amount of care for me to actually say such kind words. Eshu, you know that you’re the first person ever to write me such long paragraphs telling me how much I mean to you right? It’s so special and my face just goes blank whenever I’m reading them, I feel so so so so so special and cared for, I love it. Khair, you’re excited for my birthday so now I am aswell, I find happiness in whatever you do eshu. Thank you so much for caring for me and my heart all through my 15th and thank you for helping me learn so many new feelings that I never thought I’d ever feel and thank you for teaching me so much about love and care, and thank for you for always trusting me to take care of you in every way and to confide so many things about you within me. Thank you for everything, eshu, you’re the best thing that has ever happened to my life. I’m so glad that you could be my first everything, really. Take care eshu, I hope we meet so very soon. I don’t know if I can I say “I Love You” right now but yeah, just know that I feel it.😭 And THANK YOU SO MUCH for the Polo and the letter and the bracelet, I love all three so much and I’ll read the letter today, once again and I’ll wear the polo with the bracelet.